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the prophecy. . .

31 July 2009

I have recently come across a work that i did about a year or so ago while perusing the internet. It is called “The Prophecy” by Aymeric Giraudel.

There is just something about this work that is simply in one word: powerful. Its combination of beauty, myth, and wrath all somehow encompasses a feeling of peace that is captured in the risen faces of the fresco. . .

What do you think dear viewer?

"The Prophecy" by Aymeric Giraudel

"The Prophecy" by Aymeric Giraudel

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awakening. . .

27 July 2009
Awakening by Joanna Powell Colbert

Awakening by Joanna Powell Colbert

With this card, we awaken to a higher level of consciousness, both on a personal level and on a planetary one. We are called to open our hearts to Spirit, to live in a more meaningful way, and to participate in the life of our communities. We “think globally and act locally” and are aware of the dakinis, angels and bodhisattvas that aid us behind the scenes as we work to heal the planet.

In this image, we see a young man opening up to the life of the Spirit. He has emerged from the darkness of the tomb/womb of Newgrange and is now following the spiral path of the devotee. The compassionate gaze of Kwan Yin, Goddess of Mercy, smiles down upon him. Cranes of peace fly overhead. We stand together in circle, between the earth and the heavens, holding sacred space where all things are possible. Magic happens, the earth is healed, and so are we.

Blessed be.

This is how Joanna has described her card of Awakening, and the symbology could not be more profound. This card jumped out at me today, and I as the Seeker can only smile at Kwan Yin’s suggestion. I devout myself everyday to awakening my self. My senses. And my mind. But it seems as if all that is around me is suffocating me. I have a feeling that this awakening will only be able to happen once I escape for a bit from the city and get to the moving waters. Perchance I will randevous this week to the beach at Grafton Park, or maybe Ill just pull a Thelma and Louise and just GO! Roadtrip anybody?

“Self-observation brings man to the realization of the necessity of self-change. And in observing himself a man notices that self-observation itself brings about certain changes in his inner processes. He begins to understand that self-observation is an instrument of self-change, a means of awakening.” ~George Gurdjieff

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cleansing auras. . .

20 July 2009
The Greater NYC Smudge Cleanse

The Greater NYC Smudge Cleanse

The aura given out by a person or object is as much a part of them as their flesh. ~ Lucian Freud

After taking some advice I have decided to do a bit of research about the sort of thing dealing with auras, or rather cleansing them. You know, its a lot easier than taking your dry cleaning in, and takes less time (roughly 15 minutes or however long you wish) than it would to get a single garmet steam dried.

Here are some interesting ways to do so:

  1. Using your fingers as a comb, comb through the space surrounding your body from head to toe. Clean your hands with running water before and after doing this.
  2. Stand under a waterfall or shower.
  3. Walking in the rainfall.
  4. Run freely and playfully in the wind.
  5. Using a single feather or feather whisk (owl feathers for example are quite good) make sweeping motions through the space surrounding your body.
  6. Smudge the area surrounding your body with the smoke from sage, lavender, and/or sweet grass.
  7. Immerse and soak your body in an Epsom salt bath.

Also, after finding the “7 Ways to Cleanse Your Aura“  there are a few similar ways which include taking a hot bath or shower, smudging, walking in the rain, and the so called “brushing” of the aura. Also regular meditation is suggested as well as “Positive Thinking” which is in my opinion the best one, and which I like to share with you here:

6. Positive Breathing

Deep breathing is another good way of cleansing the aura. Follow these steps for your session.

  • Choose a nice quiet place where you wont be disturbed.
  • Seat yourself comfortably.
  • Take deep breaths in through the nose and out through the mouth.
  • After a couple of minutes of deep breathing, imagine that you have a ball of pure white light above your head. Imagine this light becomes brighter, and you may even start to see gold within the light.
  • Imagine this light growing larger and brighter and then bring it down slowly towards your head, allowing it to penetrate the aura and feeling the brightness and lightness of this beautiful light as it works its way down your body. You may feel a little light headed as the light moves through your body. This is normal and it will pass.
  • Envision the light as it continues to move down your body and out through the soles of your feet. Imagine then that you have roots beneath your feet and the negative energy is flowing down through these roots deep into the earth. The energy that has been drawn away will then be neutralised in mother earth.
  • Now imagine the roots turn bright white, they may even sparkle with flecks of silver and gold. This is the pure clean energy you now imagine as it moves back up through the roots, up through the soles of your feet and into every part of your body, radiating outwards so that your whole aura is filled with this pure white light. When the light reaches the top of your head, allow it to move upwards into the aura above your head.
  • Take a few more deep breaths and allow yourself to focus on the sounds all around you and the place you are sitting so that you are grounded once more back into the material world.

You should now feel totally revitalised. This exercise is like a vacuum cleaner sucking up all the dirt as it moves over the carpet. All the negativity in your energy field is sucked up as the light moves over your aura.

-By Jackie Dennison

I think I am going to go now and emplow these techniques and try to cleanse myself. Then my next step will be to open my Chakras and try to “learn what was not taught to me. The likes of which I did not grow up immersed in. The old ways of knowing.” Because I have the gift of intuition I am told and there are some things that cannot be gained without help and a tutour. . .

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Alas, Dumbledore. . .

16 July 2009

half-blood_prince

..let us step into the night and pursue that flighty temptress, adventure.

It was midnight. My pulse quickened and as I shuffled my feet closer and closer to the enterance of the ticketers, I could hear the hums of anticipation, see hundreds of muggles shuffling like sheep, taste the popcorn, smell the sweat in the air, and touch the red ropes that were keeping me from that seat in that such theatre where my hopes and fears would be challenged. Yes, I was among the thousands braving the night, and sleep deprivation, to view and expiereince the sixth Harry Potter novel. I was foolish yes, and saddened too. You see I was not impressed. Sadly so. There was much taken out, very IMPRTANT parts that should have made it into the movie. It was lacking in Tom’s history, the murder of his fellow orphans, the creation of his horcrux locket, the meaning behind the ring, and the burial and memorial service of Dumbledore! I was firstly outraged, and then flat out disappointed to the extent of utter dismay. Needless to say I needed the entire next day just to recuperate….I left work considerably early and developed a sore throat.

Bollocks! Instead of putting in what JK INTENDED for readers (viewers) to read (see) the developers chose to show disgusting displays of sexual innuendo, we wont go into detail of the “Oh Harry your shoelace!” This shows nothing but complete dishonour to the characters, and do not even get me started on the producers insertion of Dumbledore “enjoying Knitting” another horrible innuendo to his own sexuality. However, underneath all of the innuendo, it was rather good, and I wished it go on longer, and quite the improvement from the last movie which was a complete failure. This one brings, I feel, the most accurate rendition of the such chosen parts that producers felt would best make a sale. Sadly Hollywood has once again proven that they will always choose what would make them a bigger buck apposed to SUBSTANCE. . . I shall say no more other than I cannot await their rendition of Hogwarts coming to life and defending itself and patrons. . . How could they possiblybungle that one up?

Lastly, I would like to post my condolences for a second time it seems, for one, no, THEE death of this generation’s greatest wizard.

Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore

With knowing eyes, and half-moon glasses,
Purple robes with stars and sashes.
Silvery hair and a loving heart,
This was a hero, wise in all arts.
Twelve uses for dragonsblood, he found.
Asleep in his marble tomb, quiet and sound.
Phoenix songs surround him still,
Close to the Castle upon the hill.
{I am tweaking and will post the full poem once it is completed}…

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Mazal Tov (L’chaim)

13 July 2009
Julie Ann Smith's Oil Canvas "Broken heart" Even though I do not fully support the use of medications for heart-ache, I do recognize some persons' need for it. I felt liek this particular painting brings about several key points a a person's life and felt it provoking.

Julie Ann Smith's Oil Canvas "Broken heart" Even though I do not fully support the use of medications for heart-ache, I do recognize some persons' need for it. I felt liek this particular painting brings about several key points a a person's life and felt it provoking.

Ever feel as if your life has been one giant misfortune after another? Ever feel like you’ve worked hard everyday for the past forever? And have thought “WHYYY am I doing this to myself?!” This has been such the question I have had lately. I work almost a 60 hour week everyday, including going in on my day(s) off. So… WHY? Ive been struggling to find myself and I asked myself this question last night before going to bed. I have contemplated doing meditation again, but WHEN am I
really able to do do? I’ve go tot make THE TIME. So, how does one do this? Well I believe that Elizabeth Gilbert knew exactly how. I posted a snippet of her book Eat, Pray, Love. But I failed to explain it. Well, in three simple words, Liz shows us this in 108 ways.

If you want to be happy, it is really quite simple and you don’t even have to travel the world to do so. You just have to BE THE CHANGE. That’s it. Nothing more. If you want to have a happy life, you must do the following:

No. 1- Make your life DELICIOUS! Cook, indulge yourself. Give into your most secret desires (assuming they hurt no one in the process). And of course, Have SEX!

No. 2- DEVOUT yourself to the life you want. Take the Time. Give yourself an everyday self- ritual to improve what you want to improve. Tell yourself that your past is your past, and MOVE THE FUCK ON. If you want your heart to not be a bloody black hole, stop sniveling on the bathroom floor, and dooo something about it. HEAL YOURSELF. Surround yourself with friends and family, but do not allow them to be your crutches, you have to perfectly well muscled legs and hands if need be, so crawl about the room and STAND THE FUCK UP!

No. 3- Find a BALANCE in your life. This is probably the most difficult but “I have faith in you. You can do this. I love you. I will never leave you.” Develop a symbiosis between your carnal desires and your spiritual aspirations. Wake up the the world each morning with a smile. Pop in some happy musik, take a shower with incense floating in the mists. Eat a delicious and FILLING breakfast. Go to work with an extra jump in your step, give them something to talk about!! It’s all about the small details. Oh, and P.S. don’t allow yourself to stay at home while your friends are out having fun. Don’t invent reasons to not go, don’t take that extra shift at work, and for the love of a freshly baked blueberry danish, DO NOT watch the Lifetime network for AT LEAST 3 months.

There, now you have it. It’s all about love. Loving others, loving others especially when you feel they don’t deserve it. Unconditional love is key. Open your heart, let it heal and GROW. And if you have to, quit your job, and travel to Italy, India, and Indonesia. It may just help, and if you can’t afford to do so, that’s why you were blessed with a BRAIN. USE it! Imagine something more, something far greater than your everyday monotony. And FYI my morning (all day) song was this one: :)

Tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x4)

Tonight’s the night night
Let’s live it up
I got my money
Let’s spend it up

Go out and smash it
like Oh My God
Jump off that sofa
Let’s get get OFF

I know that we’ll have a ball
if we get down
and go out
and just loose it all

I feel stressed out
I wanna let it go
Lets go way out spaced out
and loosing all control

Fill up my cup
Mazal tov
Look at her dancing
just take it off

Lets paint the town
We’ll shut it down
Let’s burn the roof
and then we’ll do it again

Lets Do it (x3)
and live it up

i gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x2)

Tonight’s the night
let’s live it up
I got my money
Lets spend it up

Go out and smash it
Like Oh My God
Jump off that sofa
Lets get get OFF

Fill up my cup (Drink)
Mazal Tov (L’chaim)
Look at her dancing (Move it Move it)
Just take it off

Lets paint the town
We’ll shut it down
Lets burn the roof
and then we’ll do it again

lets do it (x3)
let’s live it up

Here we come
here we go
we gotta rock

Easy come
easy go
now we on top

Feel the shot
body rock
Rock it don’t stop

Round and round
up and down
around the clock

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday
Friday, Saturday, Saturday and Sunday

we keep keep keep keep on going
we know what we say
party everyday
party everyday

got a feeling
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night

Since I woke up this morning I have had the Black Eyed Peas’ new song “Ive got a feeling” stuck inside my head, and to tell you the truth I have enjoyed it. . .

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summer is a time to cerebrate.

10 July 2009
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Amedeo Modigliani - Portrait of Jeanne Hebuterne in a Large Hat

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trying to find my own inner BLISS.

10 July 2009

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“When you try to seek the Knowledge you have to become the Knowledge. The light of Love is so sweet, so beautiful, so enamoring, so abounding. You can feel that Light within you which is of pure love, pure relationship and pure understanding.”

Lately I have been thinking about Sahaja Yoga Meditation. . . I am curious, and at the same time afraid. I do not know nor do I understand this fear that which is inside of me, but I do know I want to give it a shot. It seems my life is always on the cusp of something, and out of no-where the other day, even though my life is a bit tattered right now, I had a moment. A moment that can only be translated in words of complete and utter INTERNAL love. I felt it in the pit of my stomach, and it rose to my heart, then to my face and accumulating on top of my head. I couldn’t stop smiling. My pain and depression seemed to melt away for an entire hour. This moment, I think, was just a taste of what I can reach. And I believe Sahaja Yoga Meditation can get me to that spot again, and KEEP me there.

I can only hope. But what I do know is how I am feeling as I finish this post. My fear has dissipated. I feel a warmth rising inside of me. Cold chills cool myred and sunburned skin. . . . .

This. . . is what I AM. This is what I must do. . . This is what I must LIVE.

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fish.

8 July 2009

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“Stone walls do not a prison make, nor iron bars a cage; If I have freedom in my love, And in my soul am free, Angels alone that soar above enjoy such liberty. But though my wings are  closely bound, my heart’s at liberty;My prison walls cannot control, the flight, the freedom of the soul…”

This work shook me to my core. I highly recommend a look see at the unseen, untold, unheard, and unforgettable. Put to test the idea that prison is merely a babysitting institution. I severely am put at odds with the idea of male rape, something that has come to my attention lately through my dealings with NYSCASA. Not too long ago I did a testimonial of a rape victim, and it thrust me into something most repulsive and meloncholical. It is a shame how society does this to us: men that is. However it is cyclical in upon itself because men scoff and joke at the very notion. “A real man can’t be raped.”  Ive heard many a time. “No guy I know wouldnt mind getting a little extra…” Utterly repulsive and at the same time very sad. How arrogant their minds are. Because you know…guys LOVE sex. Anykind, any time, any place. Because “cummon….we’re guys…”

I happen to be gay. And sex isn’t all that grand a thing. Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy it, however society would put me in with the “sissies” and label me “nit a real man” so that by society, Id have to “protected” and get “a real man…”

Insolent..

I dare any guy who has ever been uncomfortable with sexuality in general to read this book, and then ask the question…. What does it take to make a REAL man?